Since 2005 the Spring / Summer time each year has been difficult for me and my family. You see, in the Spring of 2005 I lost my job. A job I really loved. And even though I have a fairly good skill set, I wasn’t successful in finding another job right away. I cried out to God for understanding and He remained quiet. In July of 2005 my parent’s home completely burned down. My mom wasn’t able to keep up with all she needed to do for the insurance company, so I was able to easily step in and take phone calls for her and field questions on their behalf. God opened my vision to see the “why” behind why I hadn’t received another job right away. I was being a blessing to my mother.
In 2006 the summer came especially hard when we received the mind blowing news that mom (also known to me as dear, close friend) had breast cancer. Again, God, why? I may have to wait until I meet Christ before I receive that level of understanding.
2007 the unimaginable happened. I was six weeks pregnant and we lost the baby, but that wasn’t the worst. Ten days later mom walked through the veil and is now spending eternity with Christ.
This year has actually come with a lot of joy. In March God gave us the gift of LIFE. Our baby Zoe was born, which is a whole testimony of miracles in itself. But 4 weeks after I returned to work I found out that I my position has been eliminated and I am now in the search for another job.
This blog isn’t about a pity party though… the reason I am laying all of this out there is that in spite of everything that has happened I vow to remain faithful. I will seek His face and sit at His feet. A song that I have been stuck on is by Audra Lynn Yet I Will Sing and she says “Though my song be taken from me, yet will I sing, yet will I praise you.” Later she says, “Whatever you do, you do through the eyes of mercy.” Another place to turn to is Job when he says, “Though he slay me, yet will I trust in him” Job 13:15
God is a God of mercy. His grace and love is never ending. He is sovereign and I know that His plan has always been and will always be far better than any plan I can come up with. I will continue to rest in His perfect ways and know that he is preparing me to bring Him glory in greater measure.
Whatever you are dealing with today… find peace in knowing that God’s timing is perfect and his love for you is never ending.
